I felt my shoulders drop this morning and I breathed a sigh of relief as it dawned on me that I could relax a little now; as my mother says, and I remember my grandmother before her saying; “I caught up with myself”.
I have been in doing mode since moving home three weeks ago and my mind has been very busy in the driving seat. Today, I have been finding my feet and sense of place and I have found myself allowing more time to breathe and be still. This stillness has allowed me to catch up and alongside my sigh of relief, I have rediscovered my sitting bones which I know help me connect with my breath and in turn give me a feeling of spaciousness.
This stillness has allowed me to catch up and breathe a sigh of relief.
I realise I had been immersed in the practicalities of life and finding places for things. I had overridden my yearning to pause and be in the process of unpacking and chaos which feels at time unmanageable and therefore overwhelming.
The expression give this time comes to mind and I tell myself to remember to breathe and allow space to settle; to trust that I will find a way through this. The feelings of excitement around change and the future that I am creating can then be accessed and nurtured. Shoots of hope and new beginnings can now gently and slowly begin to find their way through the doubts of the unknown.
